The Rulebook Grows
After the woman with the clipboard came and went, things didn't get better. They got quieter, which is different, and worse.
Grant started checking the schedule on the fridge before he did anything — Mom's shifts, the days she closed the pharmacy till nine, the days a neighbor might be smoking on their own balcony close enough to see ours. The cool-downs still happened. They just happened on the right days now, at the right times, like he'd learned to read a tide chart.
"You don't talk to your teacher about home stuff," he told me one evening, crouched down to my height in the hallway, voice easy as a bedtime story. "Family stuff stays in the family. That's just how families work, Junie. You understand that, right?"
I said I understood. I understood a lot of things by then I didn't say out loud.
Poppy stopped going near the sliding door on her own, even on sunny days, even to look at the pigeons she used to name. She'd stand three feet back from the glass like it might reach out and grab her.
I asked her once, real quiet, if she wanted to tell Mom about the door.
She shook her head so hard her whole body swayed with it. "Mommy says it's not real," she whispered. "Mommy says I'm 'membering wrong."
That word — 'membering — sat in my chest for days.
Then came the Tuesday Mom's shift ran late, a delivery truck problem, and Grant lost track of time the way he never usually did. I know because I checked the microwave clock myself, twice, my own heart going faster than the numbers.
Twenty-two minutes.
Poppy wasn't crying anymore when he finally opened the door. She wasn't doing anything. She was just sitting against the railing with her knees pulled to her chest, soaked through, staring at nothing the way grown-ups stare at nothing after bad news.
That scared me more than the crying ever had.
That night I added two marks instead of one, because twenty-two minutes felt like it should count double.