A Word to Ms. Bellamy
Ms. Bellamy noticed things. That was the whole reason I chose her — not because I was going to tell her everything, just enough to put a second person in the room with the number in my head.
We were finishing a worksheet about weather safety, of all things, thunder and lightning rules, and I asked her, quiet, when everyone else was packing up: "What happens if a kid gets locked outside during a storm? Like, on purpose?"
She didn't laugh it off the way I half expected. She set her marker down.
"Locked outside where, Junie?"
"Just — asking. For a story I'm writing."
"Okay." She crouched so we were eye level, which teachers only did when they meant it. "Is this story about someone you know?"
I looked at the door instead of her. "It's fiction."
She let me have that lie for exactly one day. The next morning there was a woman in the front office with a lanyard and a clipboard, and Ms. Bellamy walked me past her like it was nothing, like the woman was just there for fire-drill paperwork.
I found out later the woman went to our apartment that same afternoon.
I wasn't there. I was still at school, sitting through math with my stomach doing slow, sick loops, imagining Mom's face when a stranger asked her questions about her own kitchen.
When I got home, Grant was on the couch with Poppy on his lap, the two of them watching cartoons like a picture in a frame — his arm loose around her, her head tipped back against his chest, easy as anything.
"Hey, munchkin," he said to me, not unfriendly. Never unfriendly, that was the trick of him. "Good day?"
Mom came out of the kitchen wiping her hands on a towel, and she wasn't crying, wasn't shaking, wasn't any of the things I'd pictured on the bus ride home.
"Some woman came by asking questions today," she said, like she was telling me about a phone survey. "Total misunderstanding. All cleared up."
Behind her, Grant's eyes found mine over the top of Poppy's head.
He didn't say anything.
He didn't have to.