8. Alive
The church erupts.
Someone screams — actually screams, a raw animal sound I'll hear in my sleep for years — and I think it might be my mother, or Mr. Delacroix, or me, I genuinely can't tell anymore because the entire world has narrowed down to my father's face and the impossible, horrifying, wonderful fact that his eyelids are fluttering, cracking open, showing a sliver of glassy, unfocused eye beneath.
"He's — oh my god, he's breathing, look at his chest, he's *breathing* —" a woman near the front is sobbing the words like a countdown.
I drop my phone. It clatters onto the carpet, still streaming, still recording the ceiling, the panic, the chaos of two hundred people trying to simultaneously flee and rush forward.
"Somebody call 911!" Mr. Delacroix is shouting, already moving, already reaching past me into the casket with two fingers pressed to my father's throat. "He has a pulse! He has a pulse, he's got a pulse, MOVE, someone call an ambulance NOW —"
My mother reaches the casket the same second I do, and the sound that comes out of her isn't crying, it's something with no name, half laugh half scream, her hands hovering over my father's chest like she's afraid touching him will prove it isn't real.
Roman has stopped in the aisle, frozen, his face drained of every drop of color, staring at his brother's chest rising, falling, rising again — and the look on his face isn't relief.
It's terror.
I catch it for just a second before he rearranges his features into something that could pass for shock, could pass for joy, and I file that half-second away because I will never, ever forget it — my uncle, staring at his living brother, looking like a man watching his own alibi wake up.
Sirens are already wailing outside, impossibly fast, because someone in the second pew had already dialed before Mr. Delacroix finished the sentence.
And then my father's lips part, dry and cracked, and a sound comes out of him — not words yet, just breath forced through a throat that hasn't spoken in six days — and every single person in that church leans forward to hear it.