4. Rehearsed Grief
I don't sleep. I read the article four times — a nurse suspended, a lawsuit settled quietly, a hospital spokesperson calling it "an isolated documentation error." Documentation error. Like a typo. Like it's not a person.
At 6 a.m. I go looking for Roman and find him in the garage instead, on the phone, voice low and businesslike in a way that doesn't match a man burying his brother in five hours.
"...the policy pays out regardless of cause of death, that's what I need confirmed before the funeral, not after —"
He sees me and hangs up fast.
"Who was that," I say. Not a question. A demand.
"The insurance company. There's paperwork, Micah, someone has to handle it."
"Before the funeral? Why does it matter if it's before or after?"
Roman's jaw tightens, and for one second — one full second — I see something under the grief-mask he's been wearing all week. Not sadness. Calculation.
"Your father owed me money," he says finally, quiet, like it costs him something to admit it. "The restaurant. I co-signed the loan two years ago. If this drags out, if there's some — inquiry — the payout gets frozen for months. I can't float that kind of debt on my own, Micah. I have a family too."
I stare at him. My uncle, who told me not to open the casket, who whispered *before anyone opens it* like it was a countdown, is worried about a loan.
"There's a lab report," I say, watching his face carefully now. "Dated after they called us. After they said he was dead."
Roman goes very still.
"Where did you get that."
"His coat pocket."
"Give it to me." His voice has changed completely — no more gentle uncle, something sharper underneath. "Micah, give me the paper. You don't understand what you're holding."
"Then explain it to me."
He steps toward me, hand out, and for the first time in my life I take a step back from my own uncle — because whatever's in his face right now isn't grief, and it isn't innocence either, and behind him, through the garage window, I watch the funeral home's black car pull into our driveway forty minutes early.