2. Six Days Ago
I keep replaying that Tuesday like it'll change if I watch it enough times.
Dad had been off for a week — pale, sweating through his shirts, snapping at Mom over nothing, which he never does. He said it was stress from the restaurant, cash flow, some supplier problem he wouldn't explain. I found him on the kitchen floor at 7:40 in the morning, phone still in his hand like he'd been trying to call someone.
"Dad. Dad!" I shook him. His skin was clammy, grey at the lips. His eyes were open a crack, unfocused, rolled half back.
The ambulance took eleven minutes. The paramedic, a woman with a name tag I never caught, said his blood sugar reader was pegged so low it wouldn't even register a number. "Severe hypoglycemia," she said into her radio, fast, clinical. "Possible diabetic — patient unresponsive, GCS three."
I didn't know what GCS three meant. I know now. It means as far from awake as a living person gets.
At the hospital, the waiting room looked like a war zone — chairs full, a woman crying in a corner, a nurse jogging down the hall with a crash cart, three different doctors calling names into a room that had maybe one free bed. Someone told us St. Anselm's was down eleven nurses that week. A flu wave. Budget cuts. I didn't care about the reasons. I cared that nobody came to talk to us for two hours.
When a doctor finally did, she looked like she hadn't slept in two days. She said the word "stabilizing." She said "monitoring closely." She said "we'll know more soon."
Mom held my hand so tight it went numb.
Then, at 6:14 that evening, my phone rang. Not the hospital's main line — a mobile number I didn't recognize, someone speaking fast and quiet, like she wanted to get the sentence over with before her own voice broke.
"I'm so sorry," the voice said. "We did everything we could. Your father passed away at 5:52 p.m."
I remember exactly how strange that felt — a stranger's voice, breathless, almost rehearsed, delivering the biggest sentence of my life over a phone that still had 40% battery.