Papers
My sister lived forty minutes away, which felt like the distance to another planet that night. She didn't ask questions when I showed up with a diaper bag and a duffel and a face I couldn't arrange into anything calm. She just took Jasper out of the car seat and told me to go sit down before I fell down.
I filed for an emergency protective order two days later, sitting across from a legal aid attorney named Faye Okonkwo who read my printed transcript of the recording twice before she looked up.
"This is good," she said, which felt like an obscene thing to say about the worst night of my life. "This is very good. Courts don't usually get audio like this."
"Is it enough?"
"It's enough to get you an emergency order today. Whether it holds past thirty days depends on what else surfaces."
What else surfaces. I didn't like the sound of that, but I signed where she pointed.
The order came through that afternoon — Doreen barred from contact with Jasper, a hearing set for three weeks out. I felt something in my chest loosen for the first time in days.
It didn't stay loose.
Weston called that night, and I almost didn't answer, but I did, because some part of me still needed to hear whatever he had left to say.
"My mother's lawyer called," he said. His voice had a flatness to it I hadn't heard before, not defensive anymore, just exhausted. "She's saying I coached you. That the recording's doctored. That this is a custody grab."
"You know it's not."
"I know. I told her lawyer that. I told her that." A long pause. "She hung up on me."
I should have felt satisfied, hearing that he'd finally chosen a side, chosen mine, chosen his son's. Mostly I just felt tired.
"There's one more thing," he said, and something in how he said it made my stomach drop before he even finished. "My mother's attorney mentioned — off-hand, like it was nothing — a complaint filed against her twenty-some years ago. Before I was born, maybe right around when I was born. Involving a foster placement."
"A foster placement."
"I didn't know we ever fostered anyone," he said. "I need to find out who that was."